This is to my old friend, I know she'll never see this, but still...
Alex, I'm sorry.
I've broken all my promises to you.
That I'd never change,
never be someone who you couldn't view.
I've apologized many times, but here's another.
I said it in a desperate, and pleading voice,
I'm sorry, but now I'm too tired to use that tone,
I'm sorry, but this dead voice is my only other choice.
I asked you why I should fight for something that only I want,
You answered "Because you love me?"
the serious face you had, did still haunt
me when I said the next sentence, "That's precisely why I wont fight for you anymore."
But I've done all I can!
Please, just hate me as much as you can.
Atleast that way we can both be happy,
we can let go,
and I will no longer
have to stop the tears' flow.
I was the shoulder you cried on,
when the world was against you.
You were the shoulder I almost died on,
when I made stupi